Sunday, January 11, 2015

Fear

This is a not an upbeat post, so if you are looking for cheer, then just look away.

I've been a bit emotional lately.  It may have to do with hormones or that my oldest just left for his second semester of college.  I'm sure those two are contributing to my blues,  but what's really on my mind is my grandmother.  We live over 1,000 miles away and I don't get to see her has often as I'd like.

I want to see her.  She has always been my rock.   She has always been my biggest supporter.  Always there for me whenever I needed her.  I've never doubted how much she loves for me.

So, what's the problem?

I'm scared.  Scared to see how much she has aged since I last saw her.  Scared that this may be the last time I ever see her.  She is almost 90.



How incredibly selfish of me.

I will face my fear and purchased that plane ticket tomorrow.  I don't want to have any regrets.

What scares you?

Monday, October 20, 2014

A Fresh Start

Wow.  I had a crazy unorganized week last week.  Because of poor planning, I did not grocery shop, fill my car with gas, pick up that mail order prescription.....ya di ya da ya da.

How do you think that worked out for me?  Not well.

Not grocery shopping, resulted in:

Heading out daily to purchase a school lunch for B.  One day I used the "Rapid Pick-Up" option by ordering via the Panara APP.  Pretty smart thinking on my part right?  Wrong!  I sent my order to the wrong Panara resulting in a much longer wait time thus being late back to school with the lunch.  Poor planning.....

Not filling my car up with gas, resulted in:

Nearly running out of gas on Friday afternoon driving up the long Chenal Parkway hill frantically trying to get to the bakery to pick up P's birthday cake.  Literally, I saw the display read, "O miles" of gas left.  I have never run out of gas before, and I panicked!  I was operating within a small window of time to get back to school for our evening event and running out of gas would have been tragic.  M could not have rescued me as he was out of town at a funeral.  Thankfully, I made it up the long hill to Kroger.  Poor planning....

Not picking up my registered mail at the Post Office, resulted in:

My prescription almost being returned back to the pharmacy.  When I presented my "pick up" notice, the clerk told me my package had been returned. My paperwork said I had been notified in September to pick up my mail.  Oops!  I had kept putting this errand off because I did not have time to go to the Post Office.  I asked the clerk if she might just check to be sure and kept my fingers crossed.  She found my package in the bin marked "To be returned TODAY".  Whew.  As I was walking out of the post office, a customer in line said, "she got lucky!"  Poor planning.....




I have neglected starting out my day in the Word and reading my "Jesus Calling" devotional.  EVERY time I fall out of my quiet time routine, I am reminded by life's circumstances that I can do all things through Him, BUT ONLY because of Him.  

By Friday evening, I was feeling not only disappointed with myself but had written on my notepad, "I give up"...

How providential, when I read this verse this morning....


Soak me in your laundry and I’ll come out clean, scrub me and I’ll have a snow-white life. Tune me in to foot-tapping songs, set these once-broken bones to dancing. Don’t look too close for blemishes, give me a clean bill of health. God, make a fresh start in me, shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life. Don’t throw me out with the trash, or fail to breathe holiness in me. Bring me back from gray exile, put a fresh wind in my sails! Give me a job teaching rebels your ways so the lost can find their way home. Commute my death sentence, God, my salvation God, and I’ll sing anthems to your life-giving ways. Unbutton my lips, dear God; I’ll let loose with your praise.....Psalm 51:12  (The Message)


I am uplifted that I get a fresh start today.  Striving for a better organized week!

PS -- if you need some extra help getting and staying organized please visit Fly Lady.


Linking up with Leslyn over at:

Leslyn's Lovely Life


Blessings,

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Weight Loss Wednesday

Today, I stepped out of my comfort zone and posted a selfie.   Not a big deal to most, but I avoid the camera at all cost.  I don't like to be photographed because it reminds me what I look like.  With the exception of the bathroom mirror when getting ready for the day, I stay away from mirrors.  It's not that I don't know what I look like -- more that I'm just so disappointed in myself.  

Disappointed for:

getting to this point.  
being lazy.  
not being a better role model to my family.  
not respecting my body -- my joints hurt so bad.

Today, I am drinking my water and literally taking it hour by hour.  I do not have a normal relationship with food.  I do not eat to fuel myself.  I eat to comfort myself.  These negative food habits run deep.  I did not get like this overnight.  I will not regain my health overnight.




Goals for the week:


  • Eat breakfast daily.
  • Drink 64 oz of water daily.
  • Eat 2 pieces of fruit and/or veggies at each meal.
  • Get 7 hours of sleep each night.


Today is a new day!

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Wordless Wednesday -- Out with the Old & In with the New

Interesting to look back on the photos I captured during September.

In no particular order....

























Linking up today with  Jenny over at:


The Jenny Evolution




Now on to the new month of October!

Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Dorm Decor Can Be A Challenge

Ok, so I am totally approaching this Mama Monday link up from a much different perspective than most of you new mommies.

My first born has just begun his freshman year in college while my daughter has moved up (or down depending which way you see it) to freshman status.

I love looking at the sweet pictures of a newborn and reading about the joys and experiences new moms are facing today.  I am a bit bummed thought as I've noticed a trend....not many moms of my age or with high school and college age kids blog as much or at all.

This summer I needed examples of how to decorate a guys dorm room.  I perused Google, Pinterest, Facebook, Instragram...you name it.  I literally found a gazillion ideas to decorate for a girls dorm but nothing for a guy unless it was from a Pottery Barn Dorm catalog.  Honestly, that is not reality.  While I love PB everything, I don't know anyone whose room or house is decorated like that.  Now, don't hate on me.  I would absolutely love for my house to look  like any one of their catalogs, but I do not have that kind of cash!

So with all that said, I wanted to show off how my boys dorm room turned out.  It still needs more decor for the walls -- we were worried we had over packed!   Maybe this will help a mom in the future when she is searching for decorating ideas.

Founders Dorm, University of Arkansas
So excited to be in a dorm that is only 2 years old!

The challenge begins!

Little sisters pitching in!


Still need to work on those bare walls!




Probably could use a rug in this area.



This wall could use a little decor as well.





This is the best configuration for a room long and narrow.
The guys have two comfortable chairs that can be unfolded
and placed in the middle of the room to watch TV or play XBox.


Not sure these faces show the excitement of now being in charge
of their own laundry and clean up!
Matching bedding automatically loses the man card.
Color coordination is ok though.




The Nuggets


A day late linking up with my friend Leslyn over at:


Leslyn's Lovely Life

Friday, September 26, 2014

Five Minute Friday -- BECAUSE

BECAUSE I have challenged myself to blog more, I am jumping on board with the encouragement of  Kate to blog every Friday on a key word with no shame, fear or worry of judgement because of my writing skills.



disclaimer:  It's been one of those weeks where I see the glass half empty..

So...here we go....

BECAUSE no matter how hard you try, there is always someone one who is unhappy or disappointed with you or the decisions you make.

BECAUSE I tend to worry and am consumed with insecurity, I cause myself unnecessary stress and anxiety over every little thing (said and unsaid).

BECAUSE. I married the sweetest Godliest man on the planet, I am told daily that I need to let things go....they are not important in the big picture.  He's not talking down to me.....just keeping me sane in a loving way.

BECAUSE, just like my blog name reads -- Today is a New Day.  I can let it define me or I can choose my path.

BECAUSE He lives, I can face tomorrow.....


Have a great weekend.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Wordless Wednesday


High school art students enjoying the beauty of the morning while sketching.  




Mrs. Buchanan giving instruction.







Nature offers great inspiration.


Linking up today with Jenny for Wordless Wednesday.


The Jenny Evolution